feeeelinggggBlueee...

yesterday, 3rd march 2009, was a really bad day in my life..suck!

1st, i lost my design source file for MxX project, i tot this stupid project should b close job since N weeks ago, suddenly my project leader ask me give her d source file...FFFF!!!! i deleted it!!! it was so so so so so damn unlucky, i deleted the file which has created outline...i onli got original source file, and so unlucky i juz update my fonts menu few days ago, that mena the original file's font will change!! i m really SWEAT, SWEAT AND SWEAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i m feeling totally bad, like a crap! off course i had to redo it, but it is doesnt matter, easy job....but i hate myself such a stupid fool, make a bad impression to my head again..SUCK!!! i think i need 160GB external harddisc to store my files.......too bad

2nd, my senior pass me some REALLY VERY urgent job to do, i bring it home to do cause everyone is left the office...mtf i donnoe wat hell is going wrong to me, i forgot bring my pendrive back! F! how to do? when i reached home, onli i realise tat! it is too late for me to go back n take it, it was almost 12am d.....i quicky 'appear as offline' in my msn status cause i noe my senior will ask for that file, i tot i can pretend i slept, who know, he text me, fuck! how can i pretend?(he is a really hardworking guy, i impress to him in this, but i m like a crab in work, i cant help, i feel bad) so, i find hundred and thousand reasons to refuse his request..in the second day, today, i wake up at 6am and reach office at 7+am, i rushing to do it like hell! anyway, it is a simple file, lucky i can finished it at 930am..but i still found myself bad, because of me, the work progress is slow down! they pass me the job because they trust i can do it well, but i dissapointed them, i m really a crap! hell, i wanna scold n slap myself...

GOD! pls give me a better brain! PLS